This review was written subjectively by me. Containing my thoughts and extremely high potential of spoiler. Reading this doesn't make you hate this movie, doesn't make you happy either. And im cryin' like a bitch while writing this review.

Directed and Written by David Lowery.
Staring Casey Affleck and Rooney Mara.
97 minutes length.
And perfectly written and beautifully shot.

p.s. this movie is not a horror movie. It is about a deep meaning of life, of existence. Explaining something big in a scoop that small. Creating real pain, suffer and sadness just to watch. Mostly this movie is speaking;

"The life that we live today was very short. And once you're gone, the entire thing you left behind is still moving on. Doesn't stop for a goddamn second. No one would really die for you. You're all alone."

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This movie was about a story of a ghost. Like, literally. A husband and wife who lives in a house, nice house in a lonely neighborhood. The husband is a songwriter who doesn't make much money to make a good living, but love is something that keep them together. 

One day, the husband dies and leaves the wife alone with no one to love. The husband later become spirit, actually a ghost like something we used to scare our siblings using a blanket to cover our body and make a pair of holes for eyes. 

The husband refuse to go to the next world and chose to meet his wife. And seeing his wife doesn't make him feel  better ( actually i'm finding the right word for arwah penasaran but i found nothing, so, yeah ). Seeing his beloved one sad and living in his memories just make him more suffer, but still couldn't leave.

And apparently, his wife found someone new. Once, his wife brought a guy, new guy to the house and kissed that guy like no one watching. The anger, pain and suffer make the entire house shook, makes her feeling the presence of her beloved one. 

The wife decided to leave the house just like the her and her husband plan to do shortly before his death. Before moving, She left something like a note in a peace of paper on the house, somewhere that hard to reach. Her-Ghost-Husband watch her leaving and try to reaching the note for years.

Time, is something that run so fast when being a ghost. He sees people come and go leaving the house just for reaching the note. Until time hit him back to past, time where everything starts. And bring him back at the time when he left her wife forever. He read what written on that piece of paper and He leaves the life of this world shortly after that.

Me,

This movie genuinely hits me hard. Make me feel a deeper emotions of sadness and complete pain of lost just to watch this movie, and deeper after i think about it. 

This movie contain a minimalist dialog and i didn't mean its less, But perfectly placed. And there's lot of scene that contain a long still scene that really hit right in the feels. The cinematography was really cool and doesn't like usual. It use 4:3 ratio with rounded edges and makes this movie not like an usual movie and this is a good thing.

When the first time i saw her, everything on my head went quiet. All the tics, all the constantly refreshing images, just disappeared.

When you have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, you don't really get quiet moments. Even in bed i'm thinking, 'did i lock the door? Yes. Did i wash my hands? Yes. Did i lock the door? Yes. Did i wash my hands? Yes. Did i lock the door? Yes.'

But when i saw her, the only thing i could think about was the hairpin curve of her lips, or the eyelash on her cheek, eyelash on her cheek, eyelash-on her cheek. I knew i had to talk to her.

I asked her out six times, in thirty seconds. She said 'yes' after the third one, but none of them felt right, so i had to keep going.

On our first date i spent more time organizing my meal by color than i did eating, or f--king talk to her.

But she loved it.

She loved when i had to kiss her goodbye sixteen times, or twenty-four times, if it was Wednesday. She loved that it took me forever to walk home, because there are lots of cracks on our sidewalk.

When we moved in together,
She said she felt safe, like no-one would ever rob us because i definitely lock the door eighteen times.

I'd always watch her mouth when she talked when she talked when she talked when she-TALKED. When she said she loved me, her mouth would curl up at the edges.

At night, she'd laid in bed and watch me turn all the lights, off and on and off and on and off. She'd close her eyes and imagine that days and nights were just passing in front of her.

Some mornings, i'd start kissing her goodbye but she'd just leave because i was making her late for work. When i stopped at a crack in the sidewalk she just kept walking. When she said she loved me, her mouth was a straight line.

She told me i was taking up too much of her time.

Last week, she started sleeping at her mother's place. She told me that she shouldn't have let me get so attached to her, that this whole thing was a mistake. But how can it be a mistake that i don't have to wash my hands after i touch her?

Love is not a mistake.

It's killing me she can runaway from this and i just can't. I can't go out and find someone new, because i always think of her.

Usually, when i obsess over things, i see germs sneaking into my skins. I see myself crushed by an endless successions of cads, and she was the first beautiful thing i ever got stuck on.

I want to wake up every morning thinking about the way she holds her steering wheel, how she turns shower knobs like she's opening a safe, how she blows out candles blows out candles blows out candles BLOWS-OUT-CANDLES.

Now, i just think about who else is kissing her, i can't breathe because he only kisses her once. He doesn't car if it perfect. I want her back so bad--

I leave the door unlocked.
I leave the lights on.

Disclaimer : Tulisan ini tidak ditujukan untuk memojokkan pihak tertentu, hanya sebatas keprihatinan. Apabila menyebabkan nyeri hati, mungkin saja ada hal-hal yang memang benar adanya Anda lakukan. Mungkin lhoh ya ini! :D

Sudah lama rasanya kenginginan menulis tentang hal ini, tapi malah numpuk dan terpendam. Memang, awal dari kenginginan ini adalah perasaan geram melihat kejadian sehari-hari pengendara yang ada disepanjang jalan yang gw temui kemanapun gw jalan. Ya tapi ujung-ujungnya lupa karena waktu sampe tempat tujuan rasa geramnya hilang, huffh.

Tapi rasanya saat ini tekad gw udah bulat buat nulis tentang ini. Haha *yah enggak apa-apa sih ini memang tidak penting hanya ingin berbagi cerita dan pemikiran*

Kenapa tulisan ini diberi judul “Imbalance Attitude Indonesian Driver” karena dari semua pengendara yang gw temui dijalan (baik motor maupun mobil, dari yang biasa saja sampai dengan yang mahal luwar biasa) rata-rata memiliki perilaku berkendara yang tidak seimbang dengan kemampuannya membeli kendaraan.

Menurut gw, pada dasarnya ketika kita punya kemampuan melakukan apapun harusnya kita juga mempunyai kewajiban yang sama untuk bertanggung jawab atas hal yang sudah kita mampu lakukan.

Dan dalam hal berkendara dijalan yang udah pasti banyak orang ya kan! Otomatis kewajiban kita bertanggung jawab dalam berkendara jadi berkali-lipat, make senses ga?

Nih ya, sebagai informasi "Setiap pengguna jalan (baik pengendara maupun pejalan kaki) memiliki hak yang sama yaitu untuk merasa aman, nyaman, selamat, sehat, sentausa mengantarkan rakyat Indonesia kedalam pintu gerbang... ... ... well hehe yang terakhir lebay sih. 

Intinya, setiap dari kita yang menggunakan jalan mempunyai hak dan kewajiban yang sama untuk merasa aman, nyaman, dan selamat dalam menggunakan jalan.

Balik lagi ke tindakan yang tidak seimbang antara kemampuan membeli kendaraan dengan kemampuan bertanggung jawab atasnya, mari kita sebutkan beberapa perilaku (yang mungkin pernah kita temui atau bahkan lakukan) dijalan :

·       Buang sampah sembarangan saat berkendara 

·       Meludah sembarangan saat berkendara  

·       Buang abu rokok/merokok saat berkendara 

·       Main gadget saat berkendara 

·       Belok/minggir tanpa kasih sein

·       Mendahului saat ditikungan

·       Melawan arus

·       Melanggar lampu lalu lintas

·       Memacu kendaraan lebih dari batas yang ditentukan saat berada pada gang kecil

·   Dan kelakuan ajaib lainnya 

Coba dipilih yang mana yang sudah pernah dilakukan atau mungkin yang paling sering dilakukan. hehe dalam hati aja pilihnya.

Mari kita contohkan dimana letak tidak seimbangnya sikap pengendara dijalan dari hal yang paling sederhana.

Misalnya : ada pengendara mobil mewah yang harga mobilnya saja bisa dapat rumah didaerah Graha Raya tapi buang sampah sembarangan (membuang diluar mobil saat mobilnya bergerak).

Secara awam kita bisa lihat, mampu membeli mobil seharga rumah tapi tidak mampu beli tempat sampah untuk membuang sampah saat berkendara. Lihat kan? Bertapa tidak seimbangnya sikap pengendara dijalan (sebagian)

Iyah memang hal-hal diatas bagi sebagian orang bisa dibilang hal yang lumrah terjadi saat berkendara, tapi apa iya masih dibilang lumrah kalau mengganggu kenyamanan, keamanan dan keselamatan pengguna jalan yang lain?

Iyah memang ada beberapa hal-hal diatas yang secara enggak sengaja kita lakukan termasuk gw sih, tapi marilah kita sama-sama tobat ahahah dan belajar mengetahui dan mengerti hak dan kewajiban kita dalam menggunakan jalan.

Udah itu aja deh sharing pemikirannya hehe udah kepanjangan juga ini tulisannya.

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Warm Regards,

Riris